Control Freak? OR Survivor? Perceive me as you will.

Recently I have been talking about my concerns over the way  I am perceived, the impact my mental health has in my life and how it often leads to being misunderstood and I become very upset and distressed. Living with an anxiety disorder & a personality disorder is tricky business and has to be approached…

You have every right not to tolerate people that have treated you badly or that have made you doubt your self worth.

I wish I'd have learnt this sooner. Seems, I have had misplaced loyalties. I have been having issues with my relationships with other, some are unhealthy or toxic relationships, and some just need more boundaries. I'm trying to work out the best way to move forward with my life, cut out the negative and surround…

Pregnancy and BPD. It’s Not All Shits And Giggles (Prenatal Psychosis)

Last year I went through lots of tests and procedures in hospital, myself and my partner were then referred to a fertility clinic because I was told I had problems with my Fallopian tubes, because they were badly damaged and I had some other problems that were causing me a lot of pain. At one…

On The Borderline: Back To Basics

When I started blogging, I was sharing some fun exciting post, but a lot of my posts are brutally honest about my life, my experiences and my Borderline Personality Disorder and mental health issues. it was a place I could be totally honest and open up and say whatever I want without upsetting anyone or…

Not everything that is faced can be changed, But nothing can be changed until its faced.

It's been a bittersweet month, I have had the saddest couple of weeks and the happiest, it's a roller-coaster. I feel like what I can only relate to as a grieving process and it's been exceptionally hard for me, although I have my partner and people around me I feel isolated, alone & misunderstood by  the…

Oh Joy! Answers.

This image pretty much sums up how I'm feeling right now. I've been lost for a few weeks, in a cycle of episodes, up, down, around, hyper, confused, anxious, excited, It's been a real Borderline Roller Coaster but I knew that soon enough I would have an epiphany. This happens now and again after I…

The Outcome: The Report Of Historical Abuse

This post is a follow-up of My Historical Abuse and My Decision To Report It. Wrote in 2012. I write this now because it's been over 2 years since the court trial ended. I have needed this time to accept it and try to find some closure. My life has moved on in leaps and…

How Do You Know When You Are Coming Out Of An Episode?

As I wrote just days ago on this blog, I felt so rock-bottom. I was  in despair and horribly confused. I've had many episodes like that, some much worse and I accept my condition and the way it makes me feel. I know that these things will happen from time to time but thankfully, it happens…

Today, I’m surviving.

I havent wrote for a while, but I feel like I need to get this out as part of me moving on from this episode. I have had an awful week, it just isn't getting any better. there is so much going on around me, really stressful things in my life. Money, friends, career, family…

Today Is World Mental Health Day, Understanding Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)

World Mental Health Day gives individuals and organisations the ideal opportunity to raise awareness of mental health within their community by providing a specific date to start the conversation about mental health. As most of you well know, I suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder, an Anxiety Disorder and have experienced Post Traumatic Stress I am…